Anna Beddoes to Davies Giddy, on or shortly before 18 January 1808
I do intreat a forgiveness that I know you will grant for all the petulence, & I am conscious of it – the iltemper I have shewn to the person of all others whom I value most — my mind is in such a state I know not how to account for my conduct – & I really am surprised at your gentleness to me — – when you are gone it will be too late to wish I had acted otherwise — I am not the person I was but am so irritable that I deserve neither friend – or even the shew of friendship – the fact is that I am highly disgusted with myself for having suffered mental feelings to have been so mastered by such as are unworthy both of us — at times I can hardly bear the sight of an object that I have so much injured & that has made me so unhappy — I intreat you will forgive me and believe me the interest & strength of affection I have so long felt for you is far from diminished but will follow you where ever you go —
Endorsement: 1808 / Jany the 18th / — / delivered at Clifton